You were out of my league

Because you are reading this, you already know that I believe in signs -that I am open to them, I am observant of them, and I receive them. I also feel pretty certain that if there was anybody who could pull off sending signs, it’s Tim.

There are two main reasons why I know he would want to make this happen. First, Tim’s belief about life and death is that we are energy and energy cannot be destroyed. Second, all the conversations over the years about occurrences that we felt were not coincidences. We would say, “coincidence? I don’t think so!”

On this particular occasion, it had been quite a week. I was emotionally raw. I was having an issue with my new car (ugh). And I was also in the midst of training as an End-of-Life Doula (more about this on my new web page https://mysoulride.com/end-of-life-doula/). Because of an assignment we had been given, I was mentally and emotionally revisiting the final days of Tim’s life and wondering, did I do everything that I could? Did he have everything he needed and wanted?

This isn’t the first time I have written about signs, so I never needed convincing that they were there. But something happened on this day that really jolted me. Because I was driving at the time, I quickly pulled into a parking lot to record an audio of what had just occurred, so there is no reason to re-explain it in written word. Here is the exact transcript from that audio.

January 29, 2025

“So, I just had, like, the craziest thing happen to me and I’m, like, kind of shaking trying to find this to record it, um, I had to pull over. It’s all good, first of all. So I just dropped my car off for, um, getting something fixed, and I have a loaner and I’m driving into to Boulder, and, um, I noticed out of the corner of my eye the number that they put on the loaner car, um, is 122, and I was like, oh 22, Tim’s death day, cool. And, um, I’m listening to Colorado Public Radio, a show called Open Air. It’s playing. It’s on. And as soon as I notice that 22, all of a sudden, the radio station, the song changes from a classical song to Bruno Mars, Die with a Smile on My Face. And, I looked at the screen [radio display] and I’m like, what, where is that music coming from and the name of the song came up [on the radio display], but it still said it was on Colorado Public Radio, Open Air. I think I got a picture of it, and it was kind of like, you know, when you are listening to a radio station and you lose signal and it goes to another one, but it was the same station and it still said Colorado Public Radio and that song came on. Then I just kind of immediately burst into tears thinking holy shit, what an incredible sign, you know, and then, it switched back to the classic and then, like, thirty seconds later another song came on. And I don’t even know who the artist was but the words were, “you saved my life” [sobbing]. And then it switched back again to the classical and then a third time, it went to another song and I got a picture of this one. It’s not one that I know but the words were, uh, the song is called Your Were Out of My League, and the words that were playing at the time were, “if I die, don’t wake me cuz you were more than just a dream” [sobbing]. It’s so crazy because I have been thinking a lot especially yesterday, about Tim and dying. And going through this whole Doula course, and I listened to this podcast yesterday about this Dr who had a near-death experience and how it changed his life and he talks about how we are complete and when we go from this  life, or leave our bodies, we are being reborn into something else and we cant be destroyed because we are energy [sobbing] and that’s exactly what Tim believed. And it’s just been on my mind and then I was reading the book Signs again yesterday [sobbing], and so I’m just like, I just said out loud, to Tim, god that was amazing!  He’s really evolving, to make that happen is really freakin’ cool [sobbing]. Those three songs and the words and the whole time the radio display says CPR Colorado Public Radio, Open Air 88.1. It never changed the channel. It was still that channel (sobbing) and those songs came up (sobbing). Okay, I’m just, [sigh] oh god, that was just so powerful and it, and just, oh god. I just don’t know what to say. It was so powerful, so I had to record this. Whoever listens to this thank you.”

And there you have it.  Why does this happen to me? In part, I believe, because I’m open to it. I am listening and paying attention (most of the time). Why do I hear from Tim so often and not from my mom, nearly as much? Maybe because Tim has a lot to say. Maybe Mom is busy with other things. I don’t know.

Do you want to hear from your loved ones who have passed? Do you ever question why you don’t? Give yourself a break, and also be patient with them. I think it is easy to be very busy and distracted by so many other Earthly, and frankly, unimportant messages. If you want to hear from someone who has passed, perhaps, ask them to show you something specific. Then pay attention. It may not be as obvious as you would like, but they are quite possibly trying.

I didn’t think I needed convincing that this communication was possible. But I have been reminded to never, ever, fade in my belief that it is happening

And on another note, I once told Tim that I was not going to be his trophy wife. What a funny (and embarrassing) thing to say!  At the time, I had a serious reason for saying it, but later as we grew into our relationship, we joked about it a lot. So, he chose some perfect lyrics from that song to get my attention. Tim would absolutely say something like “you were out of my league.” And then we would laugh.

*after researching later, I found that the second and third lyrics are both from the same song, Out of My League by Fitz and the Tantrums