You were out of my league
Because you are reading this, you already know that I believe in signs -that I am open to them, I am observant of them, and I receive them. I also feel pretty certain that if there was anybody who could pull off sending signs, it’s Tim. There are two main reasons why I know he…
It’s only a car
Grief changes over time. It becomes different. I believe you will hear this from most people who have been mourning a significant loss. Even still, it doesn’t really go away. And moments will arise that will remind you of this truth. In March 2018 Tim and I were putting plans in motion for a new…
One more ride
My mom, Sharon, passed away on November 24, 2023. This is the same date, November 24, on which her own mother died 57 years earlier. We only learned of this synchronicity a few days after Mom’s death. It amazed me. It, somehow, comforted me. And it made me reflect, even more, on what had been…
Oranges
There are all kinds of changes that can occur in our habits and abilities when experiencing the loss of someone we love. Grief can take over in unanticipated ways. After Tim died, I found reading a book to be immensely frustrating. It was difficult for me to concentrate beyond a few pages at a time.…
This new math is hard
Math, or anything closely related, was never an enjoyable subject for me. I was lucky though. I had one of my favorite teachers in high school for Algebra 1 and 2. Mrs. Bowman was tough but encouraging. She was the kind of teacher that I would work hard for and really learn from, so I…
An Unremarkable Story
Tim and I were in Sedonna for a few days to ring in 2013. This was a place we visited quite often. On this occasion, it was colder than we had planned for and in fact, it snowed. We stopped at a random, mom-and-pop outfitter store to get something a bit warmer to wear. As…
Who will call?
A few months ago a man left three voice messages for my sister, Jackie, in less than 24 hours. He said he grew up in the area and was calling to inquire about my Mom. He left his name and Florida number. She was suspicious, but when she shared his name with me, I knew…
My one and only
November 24, 2023 – Today, I am reminded of this, when someone you love, who you are immensely invested in, has just died, But there is one thing that I learned only now, in this moment. No matter how old I am and how expected her death may have been, it really hurts, because my…