It’s final
The Clerk of the Court has accepted and filed the final Accounting for the Estate of….and the Estate is now closed. I received this letter 16 months after Tim’s death. As the Executrix of his Estate, I was relieved that this process was complete. I had said out loud to Tim so many times in…
We never made it to Grand Cayman
If you knew exactly what your future held, and it included as much excruciating sorrow as it did immense joy, would you choose it anyway? If you were given the choice, and you had to take both or neither, would you say yes? Spoiler alert. I am mulling this over after watching, The Arrival. Not…
It’s now full
I have 15 journals. I love to shop for them. Scan the physical shelves. Pick them up. Flip the pages. Assess the type of paper. I love to receive them as gifts. And I have never filled one. Maybe because I love getting new ones. But mostly I think because I have never had such…
No Such Thing
My friend Chuck says there is no such thing as bad weather, only bad clothes. I think he learned this sage wisdom from his father. The first time I heard it, I said, I like that! And I have repeated it to many others as well as myself hundreds of times. I like warm weather.…
Finding My More
You find a partner, you figure out how to support one another, and you shift and modify to make it together. It’s a fairly standard part of life. Tim and I both had careers that demanded a lot of our time. I took extra care of him on his particularly grueling call and post-call days.…
Nothing had stopped
The first night I had without Tim, I was in a daze. I was foggy. I was exhausted. When I awoke the next morning after 9 hours of sleep, I showered, got dressed, with no idea what to wear, and drank two cups of coffee. I then walked downstairs to my apartment rental office to…
I’m back
A brief note to let my subscribers know that I am back! Watch your inbox tomorrow, Saturday, for my first post since pausing my blog in September. My new cadence will be a post every other Saturday. Thanks for reading, commenting both publicly and privately, and sharing with others. See you here tomorrow!
Pause, for now
I have been posting in my blog every Saturday for six months. Like so much about these past few years, it is hard to believe. At the beginning of the year I felt the inspiration to put my yearning to write into this format. I was talking to a friend, about what, specifically, I don’t…
This is NOT about hiking
I was hiking Mayflower Gulch Grand Traverse trail. It was 60 degrees. The sky was blue with a few scattered, cotton ball clouds. I was above the tree line and paused to catch my breath as I headed toward 12,000 feet elevation. I scanned the horizon. I was in a basin and had a 360-degree…
My Man
It’s time you get to know the man in my life. He is short, strong, and agile. And he is covered with the softest, glossiest black hair. Truthfully, Hank was a Daddy’s boy. It’s easy to see how that happened. Tim was the one who insisted that we adopt Hank despite my resistance, not because…